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Okay, even if I didn't have a qualified psychiatrist suggesting it every time I turn around, it is enormously apparent, even to me, that I am finally surfacing from long-term, if median-level, Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD).
The amount of energy and motivation I have had since the weather warmed up late last week is positively astounding. I want to clean, I want to organize. I don't want to waste my days sleeping. Of course, I'm still having trouble with lethargy due to budeprion (even taking it before I go to bed isn't entirely helping), but I'm actually interested enough in the outside world to make the effort to overcome it! Hell, I shaved my legs above the knee yesterday! Yay me!
I've also noticed that I'm motivated to count WW points again. The idea of leaving the house is no longer an enormous chore to be avoided at all costs (of course, Herself's increased awareness and cooperation probably play a major role in this).
There's still enough pagan in me to really feel like now is the real beginning of the year. I made some, not resolutions, but plans back in January that I just now feel equipped to implement. They look a little something like this:
I know that this seems like a lot, but I won't be trying to do it all at once. One thing I did take away from the famous FlyLady is the way to form habits, and I'll be implementing these one by one. Hopefully, I'll have enough momentum (and full-spectrum light bulbs) to carry me through next winter. Wish me luck!
The amount of energy and motivation I have had since the weather warmed up late last week is positively astounding. I want to clean, I want to organize. I don't want to waste my days sleeping. Of course, I'm still having trouble with lethargy due to budeprion (even taking it before I go to bed isn't entirely helping), but I'm actually interested enough in the outside world to make the effort to overcome it! Hell, I shaved my legs above the knee yesterday! Yay me!
I've also noticed that I'm motivated to count WW points again. The idea of leaving the house is no longer an enormous chore to be avoided at all costs (of course, Herself's increased awareness and cooperation probably play a major role in this).
There's still enough pagan in me to really feel like now is the real beginning of the year. I made some, not resolutions, but plans back in January that I just now feel equipped to implement. They look a little something like this:
· Taking care of myself physically
o Go to bed earlier/get more sleep
o Climb back onto WW wagon
o Exercise
· Writing
o Finish “Damage”
o Write a chapter a month of Unmanageable
o Blog more often (especially on my "professional" blog over on Blogger)
· Scholarship
o Translate at least 10 lines a month--Latin, Anglo-Saxon, German, it doesn't matter
· Teaching
o Get Axia feedback in on time
o Organize files on jump drive
o Write more lecture posts
o Do PowerPoints for Laurel lectures
o Get feedback to Laurel students much more quickly
· General
o Keep up with Franklin planner
This last one is kind of key. I remember things better when I write them down manually. I get more writing done if I sit down to a paper and pen than if I sit down to a keyboard. I know for a fact that a human being is seven times more likely to remember something if it's written down. I can't keep lurching from deadline to deadline. I have to direct my schedule--I'll be miserable if I continue to let it direct me.Of course this will all get enormously easier come May, when Herself starts daycare two days a week. But even before that, I need to make an effort to get her out of the house as well as myself. She's a high activity kid, and now that the weather seems likely to accommodate it, she just needs room to run. Fortunately, there's a honking huge city park half a block from the house with ball fields. I'm being very careful not to use food as rewards, to not pressure her to finish meals or snacks if she's no longer hungry, but she needs to see me moving around as well. Walking, biking, exercising--it has to be seen as the norm.
I know that this seems like a lot, but I won't be trying to do it all at once. One thing I did take away from the famous FlyLady is the way to form habits, and I'll be implementing these one by one. Hopefully, I'll have enough momentum (and full-spectrum light bulbs) to carry me through next winter. Wish me luck!
